Of break ups

Break ups must be the single most hardest thing to do. You have to use the right wording and timing is a very crucial aspect in it all, you have to read in between moods, different aspects in life and in the end there really is never any appropriate time to do it. You just need to know when to do it. In my case I have been broken up with and I believe I broke up with someone at one point, but I felt like it did not count because I really was not emotionally invested with the individual. I am not a heartless prick but since I was not emotionally attached to said individual it was easier and he just kept giving me every reason to break up with him because I discovered our paths in life were completely different and we just were not on the same page. (well that should be  whole story for another day)

This post really is not about a break up but more about of a quitting which I consider a break up. Am an AIESECer or actually I should say I was an AIESECer. For those wondering what AIESEC is, you can just click on the link provided https://www.aiesec.org/#/about/mission ( I feel like am marketing it at this point and I also don't know how to do that cool here thing and link is all there). Anyway I was a very active member of the organization for the almost one and a half years I have been there, I learnt all that I could in that time and it was fun. So very recently I discovered I could not do it anymore, I lost that emotional connection, the butterflies were gone, the anticipation and the metaphoric hard-on's that you get from carrying out new tasks and I just did not get the thrill anymore. This was a signal that my time at AIESEC was done and it was time to move on ( I didn't know this would be the challenging bit). It took me about a month to tell my "boss" and friend that I was leaving and I had other things to focus on in life. I suck at timing as much as I suck at sugar coating (anytime I think of sugar coating I get an image of pouring sugar on someone, but that's just me). I suck at that art and I have tried so many times but I always just come out and say it. What I kept wondering the whole time is "how do people manage to get through with break up??" It hurt to see the look of shock and then disappointment in her eyes and this little tremble she had (maybe anger, maybe fighting back tears or her words). Then she spewed out five words I did not want to hear, "You looked like the quitter"....I slapped her there and then (well, I wish I did). I just stood there shocked and explained to her my reasons. I swear break ups are so exhausting!